2005-12-22 - 4:53 p.m.

xmas failure

I’ve super failed at Christmas this year. Things are still a mess, I didn’t know where I would even be for the danged day until Sunday and it’s all dumb.

LP is coming to work at my work now. Starting in January. That’s something awesome, I guess.

Last night I got to the boyfriend’s house and worked on purtifying the presents I had wrapped. Then an awesome episode of MythBusters came on. And I wrapped and smoked and made out with some Jameson and went to bed early.

And as I was in the early bed I realized this whole time I’ve been staying with the boyfriend person since I’ve put all my belongings in storage, even though I get up early and go shower and feed my animals elsewhere, that I haven’t had any really bad nights in a while.

When I am by myself I can really work myself into a rut, and have sad alone times instead of healthy, functional ones.

Makes me wonder if living alone isn’t the best thing in the world like how I always used to think.

Tonight I’m going to borrow a car to drive out of town.

And then exchange gifts with BF. I hope he likes his nose hair trimmer.


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