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2006-09-30 - 12:06 p.m. so dronk & sad for updating I've spent the summer single & buzzed. I've never gone out so much in my life. Surrounded by friends & people the whole time. I thought it'd be good to be distracted, to be busy. It was sorta. I met some new people & became better friends with others. The new people I've met are aces & I am thankful. It's hard to do what's right when you aren't sure what is right. To stick to your guns when you don't trust your guts is risky. Yesterday they laid off a bunch of people (who still works at an internet company. god.) & then let us go home at like 3. That means about 50 of us go to the bar. There were shots by 3:30. Which I didn't do b/c I knew I had to be somewhere around 8. But later I did some. Then went to my friend's open studio and I knew the old boyfriend would be there, which I figured would be ok. But it wasn't. And ugh. I cry, cry, cry b/c I am not safe and I am lonely & unsure. Bleh, guys. I hate this. But I'm going to Mexico in November, NYC in December & and Turks & Caicos in January. More distractions. But this time with a tan. Now I'm off to the Barney's Co-Op and a fragrance event with a new gal pal. and it continues. (p.s. if you were under a rock or married to Tom Cruise this past week, please go immediately to Ryan Adams' website & listen to that shit he's got streaming there. God. Pure fucking comedy.) made by: sundaygirl |
